Archive for November, 2011

…a Happy Thanksgiving ! I thank God for you and for the tie we have through WordPress, also thanking Him for all the great things He has done for us, along with the hard times He has brought us through! Enjoy your day!

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Jeremiah 29:11’s “For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you…Plans to give you a hope and future”  played in my mind as I slept. In my subconscious, I told myself that I knew the verse. I recited it as my chant of hope whenever I felt like giving up. But, over and over it played, like a song stuck on repeat for some reason that was unknown to me. As if God wanted me to really get the meaning: that He had me. Safe and secured in His arms. That He was my shepherd and my provider.I may not have known the real reason why God woke me up with this beautiful verse this morning, but I knew He needed me to not let my faith fade away.

As I started to get ready for work, He again revealed to me all His promises to those who love and put their trust in Him through this one verse. This verse found me in my most discouraging moments and picked me up. This verse strengthened my faith every day. This verse put a wide smile on my face as I awakened from my sleep this morning, and it kept me happy and content the whole day. This verse gave me a renewed hope, brand new aspirations and the urge to tell the whole world about the unconditional and unfailing love of God.

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There are a few things in life that I particularly don’t find fascinating nor cool. Some of them make me frown, but most just make me shake my head in disbelief. This list will ever grow as long as I live, but for now, here are a few things that I find uncool…in no particular order.

Smoking kills!

1. Smoking.  Unless you don’t love yourself, I don’t understand why you should smoke yourself to death everyday. Same goes for drinking and drug abuse.




2. Children disrespecting their parents in public. Although I believe disrespecting your parents anywhere is plainly not right, but doing it in public, is just scandalous.




Now THIS would've been cool. But that's just not the case :-/

3. Dog poo. If you don’t like the idea of picking up your dog’s poop, you don’t deserve to have one! That’s just my theory.





4. The price of snacks at movie theaters. I don’t know where to begin when it comes to this matter; should it be the part where they are ripping us off, the part where they don’t accept outside food/snacks OR the part where, despite the fact that they’re so expensive we still buy them anyway? I don’t know.





5. Male bashing. Bitter and weak women tend to do that and I don’t think it’s cool. I know there are some really shady men out there, but not all men are the same. Same goes for Female Bashing.





6. Farting in close spaces. Places like the elevator, the train or the van may seem like the ideal place to release yourself due to the fact that they are 99.9% of the time crowded so no one will really know who did such crime, but please, unless you have a clean colon, relieve yourself somewhere else. Farts can actually cause asthma attacks. (It may not be scientifically true, but I believe it’s a potential hazard for asthmatic people…like myself).





I'll need to get one of those soon...Anti-theft umbrellas

7. Stealing someone’s umbrella. In the words of my crazy cousin: “I often pray  for people who steal other people’s umbrellas. That one day the same thing would happen to them and that they would see the light.” I wouldn’t quite put it that way, but, yeah…it’s not cool.





8. Wanting to shake MY hand with the SAME hand I saw YOU wipe your pharyngeal discharge with. HUGE uncool on my list.





Stop Fooling around! Make a difference!

9. April fooling. Since people have been taking this April Fool’s day thing into a whole other level, I just think it has lost its zest and it’s no longer considered cool in my book. It’s not that I’ve lost my sense of humor but there are far better things to do (like raise awareness for Autism) on that day.




10. Stereotyping. There is nothing worse than putting an etiquette on a certain culture, race and people. Ignorance is bliss…it’s time to wake up people!

That is all for now folks! 😉

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I have a very bad habit. And that’s cancelling plans. I usually have some valid reasons, but sometimes I just don’t. My decision to cancel sometimes depends on how I feel that day. Once I’m not in a good mood, I would just cancel. It may seem like a selfish move but it really is not. It’s more like an equation in my head: If I’m not in a good mood, I will draw so much negative energy therefore I will ruin it all for everyone.” So instead of going and being a party popper, I stay home and try to re-mediate myself.

Then there are the times when I do have reasons to cancel. Like I mentioned many times in several of my posts here, I engage in a lot of activities in my church or for my church. Some of them I don’t recall ever affirming that I wanted to be part of, but somehow I’m all up in them. So what happens now is that, everyone__from my pastor to all the presidents of the different departments of the church__ counts on me. Why, you ask? In the words of my blunt boyfriend “Because you don’t know how to say no!”. Not that this is entirely true, but sometimes, I just can’t bear to say no when it comes to doing something for the people at my church. My mother raised me to always be of service for the church anytime that I can. And I’ve always kept that with me. Now it’s making and breaking me at the same time.

There have been times when I had to cancel girls’ outings, birthday parties, bridal/baby showers  just because I had to be at practice or because I had to wake up early for Sunday service the next day. I have broken a lot of my friends’ heart by doing that, and now some either don’t invite me anymore or are skeptical when I RSVP. I hate the fact that, even when I use the proper etiquette of bailing, it still hurts the other person. I then get mad at myself for not handling the situation the right way, especially after I gave my word to be there.

Well, last week was different. I didn’t wake up with a certain state of mind to be bold in the decision I made, but it sure gave me the balls to stand up for myself.  One of my girlfriends came in town to celebrate her birthday: 4-day weekend type of celebration that is. And I knew about her coming since July. And of course, like all the other times, I told her I would be there.

“Are you sure?” I remembered her asking. She sounded unconvinced.

“I promise, I’ll be there.”

Knowing me with my cancelling habit, she was super excited and took (rather, held onto) my word for it. So the plan was for us to meet Thursday night for dinner.  I was excited, that, for once out of  the many times  I’ve cancelled on friends and family, I was finally keeping my word. Only to realize that it wasn’t going to be for long.

Last Sunday was Young Adult day at the church. This is when all the young adults of the church do everything in the services: from ushering to directing and preaching. So guess who was picked to direct THAT Sunday out of every single suitable young person? You guessed right. Me. Now I had a dilemma. If I was to direct, I would need to attend praise team rehearsal which would be that same Thursday of my friend’s birthday dinner. And that night would be the only night she would be in NY, the only night I would be able to see her since she made plans to be in Massachusetts the rest of the week-end. I can’t begin to explain the crowd of thoughts that kept racing through my mind. I wanted to tell my pastor that I wouldn’t be able to direct, if it meant for me to be present at rehearsal. But I didn’t want to let him down. So I said nothing, and concluded that the best thing would be for me to cancel…on my friend.

Too ashamed to call, I sent her a Facebook message, first asking her when she would be leaving NY, because I ‘probably’ wouldn’t be able to make it on Thursday because of rehearsal.

“You always have something going on. I’m disappointed. I’m not going to hide it. But it’s ok. I understand.” was her reply. My fingers  itched to type back “No! you don’t understand! And that wasn’t my question!” but I had to face the truth. And whenever I face the truth, I’d throw a fit then finally, I’d give in. I explained the whole dilemma to my older sister, hoping to get her to sympathize with me, but instead she told me: “So you have so much responsibilities…whose fault is it? There are other people in the church who are  well-able to do all that you do. You just make yourself too available. That’s your problem. Be unavailable for once.”

So I picked up my cell and called the praise team director. I told him I would not be able to come to rehearsal and sent him a list of what needed to be done. He tried talking me out of it, telling me that I needed to be there and such, but I resisted. I knew I needed to be there, but God knows that I’ve always been there, rain or shine, sleet or snow. For once, I had to decline.

So I went to the dinner. My friend was so happy to see me. She hugged me for what seemed to be a very long second and whispered: “Thank you…”. I hugged her back and smiled. That made the rest of my weekend :-).

Then Sunday came, I directed. And the service went marvelously :-).

I’m glad I’m slowly breaking this bad habit.

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Before you give me your verdict__as the worst and most trifling blogger ever!__ I need you to sympathize with me…please…just a little 🙂 (Hello lovies! Hugs!)


My life has been a little hectic for the last couple of weeks! Between school, work, choir practices, praise team rehearsals, helping my sister with her wedding preparation and also helping the youth of my church prepare their anniversary celebration (talk about multitasking), I barely had the time to eat.

I had helped my sister get her bridal gown, the bridesmaids’ dresses and also found a photographer & cameraman, a make-up artist and all. But in all this disarray, I haven’t found my dress yet! And knowing myself, if I can’t finish up what I started I will not stop nor rest! My boyfriend always complains about me putting other people’s needs above mines, and that I don’t take time to enjoy myself. I hate the fact that he is right and I know deep down that it is the truth but I denied it all.

Who’s to blame in reality? It’s not my fault that I was born such a perfectionist. It may not be a virtue but it can’t be that bad of a vice either. Since I feel like I’m much better at dealing with myself when I fail at planning and such, I rather let me blame myself. Not someone else.

So yes. I will skip and sacrifice breakfast, lunch, dinner, snack times, sleep, fun days/nights to finish my tasks. After everything is done, I will play and rest with a peaceful mind.

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